The one

I have found THE ONE.

but....

He is not THE ONE.

but....

He IS THE ONE.

but....

but...

sigh....

I don't want to think about problems that I can't solve anymore...

Counting down

I am counting down again~ counting down the days to diving in Manado, Indonesia in less than 3 weeks' time. I have not dive outside of Malaysia as yet. Everybody loves going back to Manado, year after year. It must be something.

However, every time I go away for holiday, I feel very heartpain to leave my Miko with the caretaker... Feeling really guilty. And I suddenly thought of my plan of going to Africa for maybe 2 weeks, when I have the money. Man.. If I leave Miko for 2 weeks, I wonder if she'd think she's been abandoned. 2 weeks.. I guess it's still ok.. but if 3 weeks......... heck, it's impossible for me to go away for so long. I don't have so many leaves. Going to Africa won't happen in near future anyway. I just hope so much she could understand me that I am just going for a short time.

There was a true story where a man lives by the sea, rescued a dolphin, and swim with it day after day. I think it continued for ... 4 years? Can't remember exactly. They swim and play together EVERYDAY since he rescued it. The man believe there was a strong friendship/bond between them. And one day he had to leave for a few months to settle some things. He was worried about how the dolphin would feel when he failed to show up at the usual time. But he had no choice.

When he finally returned, he went to the sea right away. He was apprehensive of whether the dolphin still there, and whether it would still accept him.

And the dolphin was there. But it kept a distance from this man. The man kept coaxing it using the dolphin's favourite toy-a plastic fish. After some time, the dolphin finally came close to him. And in the end, it accepted him as its friend again. You should look at the way they play with each other... So heart warming. This was shown in a documentary, I wonder if anybody reading this ever watch it.

Anyway, back to my Miko. I love my Miko soooo muchhhh. I bought her a mushroom house the other day. I showed it to her when she's out of the cage. She explored it a bit. And then I put the mushroom house in her cage. She went in to play with it. I sat outside the cage watching her play. After a while, she came to the cage door, and her front paws rest on my thigh, for quite some time, and I sayang her. I think she was thanking me for buying her a mushroom house hehehe... It could be my imagination but it could be true as well~ you never know.

Every time before I go for my holiday I will tell her everyday, that I am going away for a few days. Tell her to be good and wait for me to come back. I hope she understands me.

Lessons from life

I heard these stories from Shirley previously. And later on I received an email of the same stories. I really love these stories, it's so true :

Lesson Number One :

A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?" The crow answered: "Sure, why not." So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Management Lesson:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very high up. Otherwise, u're finish.


Lesson Number Two :

A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy. "Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients." The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it actually gave him enough strength to reach the first branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fortnight, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon the turkey was spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.
Management Lesson:
Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.


Lesson Number Three :

When the body was first made, all the parts wanted to be Boss. The brain said, "I should be Boss because I control the whole body's responses and functions." The feet said, "We should be Boss as we carry the brain about and get him to where he wants to go." The hands said, "We should be the boss because we do all the work and earn all the money." And so it went on and on with the heart, the lungs and the eyes until finally the asshole spoke up. All the parts laughed at the idea of the asshole being the Boss. So the asshole went on strike, blocked itself up and refused to work. Within a short time the eyes became crossed, the hands clenched, the feet twitched, the heart and lungs began to panic and the brain fevered. Eventually they all decided that the asshole should be the Boss, and so the motion was passed. All the other parts did all the work while the Boss just sat and passed out the shit!
Management Lesson:
You don't need brains to be a Boss - any asshole will do.


Lesson Number 4:

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung and promptly dug him out and ate him!
Management Lesson:
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) And when you're in deep shit, keep your mouth shut!

My favourite is the last one. So true, isn't it?~

Sandals..

I can’t believe I just spent $39.90 on a pair of sandals… To others it may not be considered expensive, to me, it is..

I bought it like I have plenty of money, didn’t even care nor consider much about the price..... But I really like it. I wanted a pair of sandals that wraps around the foot but not those usual ones which has fabric as they get wet easily and takes forever to dry. I wanted a solely rubber one. It’s not that common. When I see people wear these type of sandals I like, I felt like asking them where they bought it...

21/3/07 note: this is the pic of my new sandals


I didn’t want too expensive ones from Nike, etc.. Though I like Nike, but I think it’s not that wise to spend so much on a pair of sandals. But when I saw that sandals I totally forgot about my considerations... This price, $39.90 is the same with some Nike/Adidas slippers… It actually looks ordinary... but I never cared…

When I got home then only I read the info on its box. It’s actually made in Brazil. The printings on the box talks about conservation of forest and rivers in Brazil, which makes this purchase feels a whole lot better hahaha… It even got instructions of how to take care the the sandals…. I have never bought any sandals which has care instructions..............

Anyway, wrote so much about a pair of sandals… I guess this post, is my attempt to justify my kind-of-senseless purchase........ hahahahahaa.....

Steven

I dream of old friend Steven yesterday. In the dream, we haven’t been seeing each other for a long time. When I saw him (in the dream) , we hold hands. Afterwards I wrapped my arm around his, we walked and talked and sat down on the sofa of a cafe, waiting for other friends to come. WHen we hold hands, it was not those boyfriend girlfriend type of holding hands. It was purely friends-only-holding-hands. It felt so good. I always thought it would be nice if I can have guy best friends, very close until we can hold hands and don’t have any awkward feelings. I think this happens a lot in Western countries.

So I sms Steven and told him about my dream. I added a “take care” at the end.

He replied, “I am still alive. Don’t worry.”

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Speechless… .............

Tioman Mar'07

Finally went diving after 7months of waiting..... That's a long wait... more than half a year. Must dive more this year..

Some photos from the trip. Kitty checking us out while we're setting up gears.


This batfish is really big~ this is a cleaning station. Saw quite a few cleaning stations this trip. Fun~


My favourite photos of the trip~ whole family of anemone fish.

Barracuda~~ I like~~



Fatty shark~~ Blacktip.


Our divers rescuing reef fishes caught by fishermen's er... what do you call that.. trap? Bubu?


I always like to see cuttlefish~~


This is a giant grouper, really big! At least 3meters long. I just had a 2second glimpse and it went hide among the rocks.... Very lucky to catch this photo.. I just anyhow press the shutter from above. Too tired to go down there to chase it....

Dive shop boss Akemi~ She had red eyes... so had to wear the sunglasses. I love diving with them as they provide more than sufficient water when we go out on boat.

Gabriel cutting sea urchins to feed the fishes. hehe.. I wanted to cut one too but the urchins were too close together and I dare not...

I can't figure out what this is...

A dying jellyfish.... poor thing...


Me and friends.

A kid at Mersing jetty.

I love going Tioman. It's near, no need to take leave, dive shop is nice, resort is nice. Just a short vacation over the weekend. Nice~~

That's so stuuuuupid

I am just sooooo stuuupid at navigation, "daily navigation". Yeah, even everyday life going to places I've never been is a "navigation test" to me....

Takashimaya, everybody goes Takashimaya. Everybody goes from Wisma Atria to Taka. I have to see the signs to find my way to MRT/Atria/Taka... can you believe it?

And one day, Gab was waiting for me at the pick up point/taxi stand. Holding one magazine in my hand, an ice-blended mocha and a latte for him, I walked round and round like an idiot. And after so much walking I still couldn't find the taxi stand. Gab called me and said it's at Cartier/Tiffany there. I refered to the directory, then only I found my way. How stttttuuuupid can I be????

The other day, I drove to a place, I parked the car at block 3 but later the shop I wanted to go is at block 2. I got what I wanted to buy. ANd guess what... I could not find the correct car park!!!!! Aaarrgghhhhhh... Why am I so stuuuuuupid???? It's just the next block... But I just couldn't find it until perhaps 10minutes later............... Uuurggghhhh....

ST said I am not stupid as I know how to read map since many girls can't. But girls can "navigate" well in shopping malls! I can even get lost in the famous shopping malls or best still, lost between 2 HDB blocks.... Geez..... Plain stupid.

I haven't been to Vivocity. I heard you can get lost in there. I better not go alone. wahahahaha...

Still.....

I still, love him...

No matter how I try to convince myself, no matter how I try to deceive myself, I still love him...

However much I cry, however sad I feel, I still love him... I am just as hopeless.

There's nothing I can do about it. My tears never run dry for him. Yet, I still love him. I have given up trying to stop myself from loving him......

Why did I say that......

Recently I wore back one of my favourite pendants - one which has got the shape like the Australia continent, with a shark engraved on it.

I ordered it from US via internet shopping. The cost of the pendant was same with the courier charges... I didn't notice from the photo on the net that it was of shiny finish. And because it's quite big, with shiny surface, it looked like a pendant which Ah Beng wears...

As my company has sandblast machine, I asked a favour from my colleague to sandblast it. I covered the engraved shark with plasticine, then get my colleague to sandblast it. The result was fabulous, it then has a matt surface.

But after that I don't know why it tends to turn yellow. Silver turns black after sometimes, but my turns yellow.. anyway, it's still pretty.

The other day I was at COffee Bean. The staff commented my pendant was very pretty. I thanked her. And we continued to chat about the pendant. I told her I ordered the pendant from US. but........ why did I tell her that? She never asked where I bought it. I "automatically" offered this info, will make people think I am "hao lian". But I just like my pendant so much that I can't stop talking about it and in the end, told people where I bought it. Why did I do that? It's stupid. Like, so what you bought it from US......... Plain stupid.

Must I tell him everything

I just got to rant. Even if this"主角"see this post.

This man, made the pantry so dirty. He doesn't close the lid of sugar/coffee properly, coffee and sugar gets everywhere after he made coffee, he never wipes them clean. I still can take this. BUT, after he opened a new packet of sugar, refilled in the container, he would just loosely tie a rubber band on it. Small cockroaches can easily crawl into it.

So I wrote a big big note, "Please put the opened sugar into a zip lock bag. It's not hygienic as there are many cockroaches." and stick at the pantry, with Chinese translation of the note too (some might not understand English).

Then it was followed.

Yesterday, my boss's parents send him Japanese 甜糕 and I left it in the pantry for everyone to share. I didn't cut it into pieces yet as I was busy.

Then this man, cut the 甜糕 , ate it, and just left the rest like that on the pantry table.

What the @*#*$#%!!

Can't he get a ziplock bag and put the food inside? (there are plenty of ziplock bags in my company)

Doesn't he have a brain to think? Must I tell him everything? Must I write specifically, "please put opened sugar, tidbits, biscuit, and any food that comes into our pantry in ziplock bag"????!!

It just gets on my nerve soooooooooooooo much.

Powerful coffee...

Wow, Yews Cafe's coffee is so powerful.... I had 2 coffee and I couldn't sleep last night, and kept tossing about until my bro was about to leave home for Changi Airport around 5am. Afterwards I tried to sleep but still... couldn't really fall asleep until about 7am. But I had to wake up at 8:30am and prepare to go for badminton with CK...

I sms YY and YK, asked if they are the same. And they are. hahaha.. so funny, YK couldn't sleep till 3am, YY couldn't sleep till 4am. I wasn't very tired, but felt it's so funny... super powerful coffee. YY and YK had only one coffee, but we also had at least 2 cup of tea after the coffee.. Too much caffeine...

Just taken my shower and lunch after the badminton session. Wah, super tired.. not because didn't sleep well, but I've gone all out and used up all my energy... until I couldn't differentiate where my court was when I came out from toilet... man... and I am very tired now. aiks... have to go back Sg.. and I want to go Orchard to buy a soft toy for myself... tired........

With friends during CNY

Last Saturday we all went ST's house 拜年. It was a bit like a bb gathering. hahah..
Afterwards we went to eat porridge steamboat. CK was so happy that he finally found this place.
Gigi, Shixiong, Patrick.
Patrick, CK and Angel.

YK and I. YK is forever so pretty like a star. Gosh... I am dammmnnnn fat.... CK took the photo, the subject here in this photo was the food, not us...

My Shixiong making faces~ hehe...

We all anticipated to see the porridge becoming green as Angel said it would, after we put in all the vege.

It only turned slightly green. It was not too bad, the porridge taste at this point.
Personally I never liked steamboat. I don't find it tasty. This porridge steamboat was no difference. Of cos , this is only my personal preference.

Today (3/3/07), YY, YK and I finally went out together. I have been waiting for YY to come back JB since 2 mths before CNY to go out with YK. hehe.... YK is going back to UK soon.

We went Yew's Cafe.
Actually, taking photos like this is kind of boring... but because we don't meet each other often and YK is going back UK soon, I feel that we must cherish the time we have together. hehe.. and so I took photos.


I was also lazy to bring out my camera BUT I just dyed my hair back to brown, so I want to take photos!!! I still love brown hair than dark brown/black~~ It cheers me up everytime I look into the mirror. hahaaaa...

The two girls with the drinks~ the drinks looked pretty. haha...

and the food~ The food wasn't very tasty actually. But what we liked was the ambience. We had a great time just lazying and chatting.

Spent 3+hours at Yew's, then changed to Purple Lotus. We were there around 7pm, and there was not a customer in there.... man..... We only had finger food there and big cup of tea.


Although there's nothing special every time posting about friends' outing, it's a record of memory. And it's a fun thing to do, to write blog about all these.

Back to brown

Dyed my hair back to brown yesterday. Even though I just spent RM100 about 1+mth ago to highlight my hair.

I reached home at 10:30pm, a bit late to dye hair but I didn't want to wait until weekend. Bad mood yesterday, and my dark brown/black hair colour made it worse. So out of impulse, I went bought the thing and dyed my hair back to brown. Not exactly the brown I wanted, but better than dark brown/black.

Cheered me up a little bit.

Recently my temper seems a bit hot. Lots of people, colleagues mainly, seem to get on my nerves a lot.