What does my future hold

This is not exactly a poem... doesn't rhyme too good and it's messy... but, whatever.

I am thankful for one thing,
that you're alive and kicking.
I am grateful for one other,
of the memories we have shared.

Fate is playing with our lives,
but you have always by my side.
What have I done to deserve you,
what have I done to lose you.

I am afraid I might forget,
how you hugged me from the back.
Boat's running in the rain and it was cold,
your hug immediately warmed my soul.

Never have I been so loved,
how am I to desert?
I am alone in this world,
wonder what does my future hold...