My life, as of now, is all about diving.
Nowadays I don't really fancy shopping, nor go clubbing with friends, etc. Almost everything I do is about diving. When I turn on my laptop, it's all about diving. Diving news, diving forum, underwater photography forum, edit my underwater photos, edit my diving holiday video.... everything diving.
People might think I have "no life". But that's just other people. I don't care what other people think. I am ok with my life now. I am happy to be able to dive. I am very poor financially, cos I spent every cent I have on diving. I am not rich... but I am satisfied that my little money can provide my diving trips.
So, I have a life. A life about diving, and I'm happy with it.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
No desire
My friends have all advised me that I should try to find a new relationship. For my own good. Ya. But I have no desire to fall in love again. Sure, it will be sweet and happy to fall in love again. But I'm tired. I'm just left with no energy to love again.
The electricity "tripped" just now. Luckily the switch is not too high up beyond my reach (managed to switch it back to normal with the help of a chair and a stick).
When there's no one around, we have to do things on our own. I managed. But I am lonely. I chose this way. Friends will say you can easily change this by open my heart again. But I do not want to. As lonely as I am, I have no desire to fall in love again. Perhaps, this is my destiny.
Some things can be changed if we try hard enough. Some things are just beyond our control. Maybe in future, one day, beyond my control, I get really sick. And that my parents might have left me. When there's no one around to care for me, I'll go somewhere no one can find me, and die there. Perhaps, no one would even try to find me except my brother. I envy those being a nurse, for they have access to those deadly drugs. Death is within seconds.
I am not thinking to die now. But I always think of ways to die. For one day, maybe I'd get really sick and I'm all alone, and I NEED to die. My brother will be there, I know. But I do not wish to bring further burden to him. He has treated me more than great this life.
I've tried. I've tried to imagine me falling in love again. But I can't bring myself to walk that way. I just can't.
If I'm destined to be alone, I will be. Even if I try to change that. Even if I manage to find someone anyhow, perhaps he will die very soon. And I'll be all alone again. Love is not something we can control. So why bother. If I'm destined to be with someone, I will be. Even if I don't try. Whatever it is, so be it.
The electricity "tripped" just now. Luckily the switch is not too high up beyond my reach (managed to switch it back to normal with the help of a chair and a stick).
When there's no one around, we have to do things on our own. I managed. But I am lonely. I chose this way. Friends will say you can easily change this by open my heart again. But I do not want to. As lonely as I am, I have no desire to fall in love again. Perhaps, this is my destiny.
Some things can be changed if we try hard enough. Some things are just beyond our control. Maybe in future, one day, beyond my control, I get really sick. And that my parents might have left me. When there's no one around to care for me, I'll go somewhere no one can find me, and die there. Perhaps, no one would even try to find me except my brother. I envy those being a nurse, for they have access to those deadly drugs. Death is within seconds.
I am not thinking to die now. But I always think of ways to die. For one day, maybe I'd get really sick and I'm all alone, and I NEED to die. My brother will be there, I know. But I do not wish to bring further burden to him. He has treated me more than great this life.
I've tried. I've tried to imagine me falling in love again. But I can't bring myself to walk that way. I just can't.
If I'm destined to be alone, I will be. Even if I try to change that. Even if I manage to find someone anyhow, perhaps he will die very soon. And I'll be all alone again. Love is not something we can control. So why bother. If I'm destined to be with someone, I will be. Even if I don't try. Whatever it is, so be it.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Incomplete sneeze
I haven't been doing sit ups when I go to gym. On Tuesday, I did a few sets. And the next day my abs hurt. Today is the second day. It usually hurts more on the second day.
And I've been having "incomplete sneezes" today... As my abdomen muscles are quite sore, when I sneeze, it hurts, and the sneeze stops halfway abruptly... man... have you experience an incomplete sneeze? Doesn't feel good. Just like when you feel like you want to sneeze but it just won't. Horrible feeling. I tried to "squeeze" my muscles and be in control, try to sneeze "softly"... but it didn't work.... I still have incomplete sneeze.......
And I've been having "incomplete sneezes" today... As my abdomen muscles are quite sore, when I sneeze, it hurts, and the sneeze stops halfway abruptly... man... have you experience an incomplete sneeze? Doesn't feel good. Just like when you feel like you want to sneeze but it just won't. Horrible feeling. I tried to "squeeze" my muscles and be in control, try to sneeze "softly"... but it didn't work.... I still have incomplete sneeze.......
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Scam, scum
Another scam from some scumbags in this world :
Sent:Monday, June 30, 2008 10:57:49 PM
Reply-to:claims.dept@live.co.uk
To: info@bejing.co.uk (info@bejing.co.uk)
Customer Service and Logistic Department Reference No:FL/668530092
Batch No: 452006/14/IOC08/FL.
We gladly wish to inform you of the draws of the VODAFONE ONLINE PROMOTION INTERNATIONAL in conjunction with the National Organizing Committee of the 2008 Beijing Olympic held on the 23rd of JUNE 2008 in Beijing China. However, your e-mail address assigned to E-Tag number 193.45.24.02 in the Random Computer Selection System(RCSS) of email addreses, flagged out the lucky numbers 21-7-14-04-19-34 and consequently won you the lottery in the 1st category.
CONGRATULATIONS!!! Please be informed that all participants in this Vodafone promotion program were selected randomly through a computer ballot system drawn from over 500,000 companies and 50,000,000 individual e-mail addresses.This Vodafone promotion is Organized by the host country in collaboration with the International Olympic Committee (IOC). Funds for the draws have been contributed by the major sponsors of the games which include adidas,Hyundai, FujiFilm, MasterCard, Samsung, Gillette, Continental,M sn, Tesco, Toshiba, Mcdonalds and a host of others.
Due to possible mix up of some numbers and email contacts, we ask that you keep this award strictly from public notice until your claim has been processed and your money remitted. This is part of our security protocol to avoid double claiming or unscrupulous acts by some participants of this program.
With respect to the above, you have therefore been approved for payment of a lump sum of Eight Hundred and Fifty Thousand Great Britain Pounds (£850,000.00 GBP) in certified cheque credited to File No:LP/26510460037/02. This is from a total cash prize of Eight million five hundred pounds(8,500,000.00GBP) shared among the ten international winners in the 1st category. Along with (A FIRST CATEGORY RAFFLE DRAW TICKET) i.e. "a chance of winning a free flight ticket to watch the return of 28 sports, and will hold 302 events (165 men's events, 127 women's events, and 10 mixed events), one event more in total than in Athens.
To begin the claim processing of your prize you are to contact the Redemption Officer stated below with your personal details.
Mr. Walter Smith ,
22 Garden Close,
Stamford,Lincs,
PE9 2YP,
LondonUnited Kingdom
Tel: +44 703 184 9545
E-mail: claims.dept@live.co.uk
NOTE: He is your agent, and responsible for the processing and transfer of your winnings to you. YOUR SECURITY CODE NUMBER IS V-3965-OP°57/C1 (keep personal) Remember, your winning must be claimed not later than 9th July 2008.
THIS SHOULD BE COMPLETED ONLY BY THE BENEFICIARY OF THE STATED FUND,FOR VERIFICATION BEFORE TRANSFER.
BENEFICIARY FIRST NAME......................
BENEFICIARY LAST NAME......................
NATIONALITY...................................
RESIDENTIAL ADDRESS.........................
DATE OF BIRTH................................
SEX...............................................
TEL. NUMBER....................................
FAX NUMBER.....................................
EMAIL ADDRESS.................................
AMOUNT WON...................................
REFERENCE NUMBER..................................
BATCH NUMBER...................................
OCCUPATION.....................................
MARITAL STATUS...............................
CHOOSE ONE MODE OF PAYMENT BELOW:
1: Have our affiliate Courier Service Deliver your Cheque to you free of charge....
2: Online Transfer of your funds( Open an account with the designatedBank in UK)...............
In order to avoid unnecessary delays and complications, please remember to Quote your reference and batch numbers in every one of your correspondence.Furthermore, should there be any change of your address, do inform your fiduciary agent as soon as possible.
Accept my hearty congratulations once again!
Sincerely,
Qi Liu President Olympic Organising committee
Yeah, I've won £850,000. Yeah, right. Scumbag.
Sent:Monday, June 30, 2008 10:57:49 PM
Reply-to:claims.dept@live.co.uk
To: info@bejing.co.uk (info@bejing.co.uk)
Customer Service and Logistic Department Reference No:FL/668530092
Batch No: 452006/14/IOC08/FL.
We gladly wish to inform you of the draws of the VODAFONE ONLINE PROMOTION INTERNATIONAL in conjunction with the National Organizing Committee of the 2008 Beijing Olympic held on the 23rd of JUNE 2008 in Beijing China. However, your e-mail address assigned to E-Tag number 193.45.24.02 in the Random Computer Selection System(RCSS) of email addreses, flagged out the lucky numbers 21-7-14-04-19-34 and consequently won you the lottery in the 1st category.
CONGRATULATIONS!!! Please be informed that all participants in this Vodafone promotion program were selected randomly through a computer ballot system drawn from over 500,000 companies and 50,000,000 individual e-mail addresses.This Vodafone promotion is Organized by the host country in collaboration with the International Olympic Committee (IOC). Funds for the draws have been contributed by the major sponsors of the games which include adidas,Hyundai, FujiFilm, MasterCard, Samsung, Gillette, Continental,M sn, Tesco, Toshiba, Mcdonalds and a host of others.
Due to possible mix up of some numbers and email contacts, we ask that you keep this award strictly from public notice until your claim has been processed and your money remitted. This is part of our security protocol to avoid double claiming or unscrupulous acts by some participants of this program.
With respect to the above, you have therefore been approved for payment of a lump sum of Eight Hundred and Fifty Thousand Great Britain Pounds (£850,000.00 GBP) in certified cheque credited to File No:LP/26510460037/02. This is from a total cash prize of Eight million five hundred pounds(8,500,000.00GBP) shared among the ten international winners in the 1st category. Along with (A FIRST CATEGORY RAFFLE DRAW TICKET) i.e. "a chance of winning a free flight ticket to watch the return of 28 sports, and will hold 302 events (165 men's events, 127 women's events, and 10 mixed events), one event more in total than in Athens.
To begin the claim processing of your prize you are to contact the Redemption Officer stated below with your personal details.
Mr. Walter Smith ,
22 Garden Close,
Stamford,Lincs,
PE9 2YP,
LondonUnited Kingdom
Tel: +44 703 184 9545
E-mail: claims.dept@live.co.uk
NOTE: He is your agent, and responsible for the processing and transfer of your winnings to you. YOUR SECURITY CODE NUMBER IS V-3965-OP°57/C1 (keep personal) Remember, your winning must be claimed not later than 9th July 2008.
THIS SHOULD BE COMPLETED ONLY BY THE BENEFICIARY OF THE STATED FUND,FOR VERIFICATION BEFORE TRANSFER.
BENEFICIARY FIRST NAME......................
BENEFICIARY LAST NAME......................
NATIONALITY...................................
RESIDENTIAL ADDRESS.........................
DATE OF BIRTH................................
SEX...............................................
TEL. NUMBER....................................
FAX NUMBER.....................................
EMAIL ADDRESS.................................
AMOUNT WON...................................
REFERENCE NUMBER..................................
BATCH NUMBER...................................
OCCUPATION.....................................
MARITAL STATUS...............................
CHOOSE ONE MODE OF PAYMENT BELOW:
1: Have our affiliate Courier Service Deliver your Cheque to you free of charge....
2: Online Transfer of your funds( Open an account with the designatedBank in UK)...............
In order to avoid unnecessary delays and complications, please remember to Quote your reference and batch numbers in every one of your correspondence.Furthermore, should there be any change of your address, do inform your fiduciary agent as soon as possible.
Accept my hearty congratulations once again!
Sincerely,
Qi Liu President Olympic Organising committee
Yeah, I've won £850,000. Yeah, right. Scumbag.
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