Travel alone?

Been thinking about traveling to somewhere near, to get away, by myself.

BUT, I forgot that I have a phobia about staying in hotel room alone… I have never done that…

Even when I shared a room with a friend, I too got scared in the middle of the night…

So… I don’t know what I’ll do…

I want to be a (bowling) bowl!

I hate alighting from MRT! All those idiots out there just don't give a damn whether you have enough space to get through!! >:(

In this kind of situation I will usually walk straight and bump into those who's blocking my way! It happened again yesterday!! Arrgghhh... but being a shorty, someone's shoulder knocked my head! SHIT HIM OR HER!!!

That's why I want to be a (bowling)bowl so that I can knock down everyone(pin) whose blocking the exit and score a strike!! >:)

Those who like to squeeze at the MRT door, beware!!

Quarrel

I don’t usually quarrel with people.

There were only twice that I can remember. Both were because I wanted to "seek justice" for my friends.

First was in sec school. I don’t know if I got the wrong idea but I had the impression that some girls (with bad reputation) were criticizing my best friend who’s a gentle and pretty girl.

One day while we walked pass those girls, I thought they were talking bad about my friend again (they were talking deliberately and loudly). Without seeking the truth, I talked back in defiance. Until now I still do not know whether they were talking about my friend… =p but I was very angry at that time… so, I did what I did.

Then we kind of quarreled in the girl’s toilet. And I cried. It all happened very fast and I didn't know what exactly happened…

I was scared cos they are not those girls in school who you want to mess around.. but… I don’t know. I don’t know how the hell I actually summed up enough courage to talk back…

Anyway, that’s the first.

Second time happened at work.

A colleague (B) lent her book to another colleague (let’s call her C). When we talked about that particular book, I said to B I want to borrow the book from her. She then told me C hadn’t returned the book to her. And it’s been a rrreal long time. I told her to ask it back, but B was a very gentle girl and she felt it’s not nice to ask it back… even though she really really likes that book.

So I said I will try to ask it back from C by telling her I want to read it. Since she’s been holding that book for so long, she should be willing to return it.

I asked C many times and yet she still did not return the book.

I got fed up. B was unhappy about it too but she’s too nice a girl to do anything about it.

I was so indignant over this.

I mean, what? You borrowed something from someone and you expect that someone to just forget about the thing she/he had lent to you and so that thing could eventually be yours?? If not, why are you still holding on the thing for so-goddamn-long after the owner (although in this case, it's me, not the owner..) had repeatedly asked for it?

So I called C (different offices) one day and said “When EXACTLY do you want to return the book?”
Of course, I sounded harsh.

And she said “I know you are the Officer, you don’t have to speak to me like that.” (She’s one of the sales personnel whose orders have to be approved by me. Ours was a complicated company)

Then we started quarrelling, I’ll spare you the details of the content… I can’t remember it exactly anyway.

I was so damn pissed off, so angry and so agitated till my heartbeat was probably over 200 (yeah well, a bit exaggerated, maybe).

And I shed tears. Uncontrollably I shed tears. I didn’t want to.. but my tears have a mind of its own as always (I always cried when being bullied at work).

Then the next day, the book was returned, by another colleague. Thank Goodness I didn’t have to face C.

Somehow, I felt that my colleague B should thank me more. Before my interference, she was already prepared to say goodbye to her book, however she liked it. She didn’t plan to ask it back. She should be more than happy that I got her book back. But it didn’t seem like it.

I felt I deserved more gratitude.

But maybe I just put myself in her “busybody” category.
Was I a busybody?? I don’t know. You tell me.

The thing about wooing a girl

When your guy friend is interested in your girl friend, you’ll often being asked for help. Help to ask the girl out, help to tell him more about her. The thing I hate most is this guy tells you he is asking the girl out and he added “Don’t tell anyone.”

What the fuck??!

Why can’t I tell anyone?

The reason being given that he will not “lose face” if they don’t work out.

So? You are so afraid of “losing face” then don’t woo her! Don’t ask her out! Then I guarantee you 101% that you won’t “lose face”.

What kind of a man are you if you are not willing to let the world knows you are asking her out? Is she so shameful? In most cases like this, the girl is a pretty babe and the guy is not a hunk. They just want to try their luck.

If I found out a guy who’s trying to woo me said “Don’t tell anyone.” to my/his friend, then GOOD BYE!! However good looking he is, GOOD BYE! Because this is chicken act!

Uurrghhh..!! I just hate these kind of men!!

I like bikinis

My brother said he wants to have a collection of watches.

I said I want to have a collection of bikinis.

He said “What for?? Watches at least would worth something if you ever want to sell it. You can’t sell bikinis…”

I don’t care. “I like”.

“I like” is probably the most common answer if you ever ask “Why?” to the youngsters of X and Y generation.

Yeah, as long as I like, who cares what others think.

And so, yesterday I went to Far East Plaza for my 4th? 5th? bikini. (That’s all?? I don’t believe this! I don’t believe I have only 4 or 5 sets of bikinis!!) I don’t think I will ever have enough bikinis. =p Why? Because I like.

I believe there’s something wrong with bikini designers.
I couldn’t find a bikini printed with coconut trees and hibiscus in nice ocean blue everywhere in Singapore! There are only pink coloured ones. I already have 3bikinis/tankini in pink… How I wish I can design my own bikinis.

Speaking of bikinis, did you ever notice, almost all commercials/advertisements that have a model wearing bikini, the bikini is ALWAYS white in colour. Condominium commercials, beer advertisements, etc… I wonder why. In real life, wearing a white bikini is very eye-catching, as the material tends to become transparent when it’s wet.

I’ve only seen someone wears a white bikini once. From far her figure looks ok. Ladies, if you really insist on wearing a set of super-eye-catching-white-bikini, please, make sure you really have a flattering figure… Otherwise it’ll be ehm, a bit, ehm… you know what I mean…

The bikini I bought yesterday was blue/green in colour. I really liked it. How I wish I can buy the whole range of colours of this particular design. Haha… Anyone wants to sponsor me? Fat chance, I know =p hahahahaha….

I pray pray

Looking at our Earth's current situation always sadden me. The dying corals, the ever depleting marine creatures in the sea, the pollution, over harvesting, etc, etc...

Tioman is where I dive most. There used to be lots of inquisitive batfish but now it's not the same anymore...

It's a snowball that cannot be stopped... whatever we do... In my opinion "The Day After Tomorrow" will come, sooner or later, regardless how desperately scientists all around the world try to prevent it. Another ice age will come, it's not the first anyway.

Malaysia government, has a funny policy about conservation… A certain area in Tioman was gazetted as protected “Marine Park”. But now they want to build a marina, not on anywhere else in Tioman but on this Marine Park. How ironic is that?

They declared an area as protected park, yet they now want to build something on it which will inevitably cause pollution, thus destroying the protected area… It’s like, I give you an apple, and I snatch the apple from your hand and step on it and crush it. There, pick up the pieces if you can.

All we can do is to dive there more before the sites are eventually ruined by the construction, and pray:

“Dear God, Buddha, Allah, please don’t let them continue with the project.. Please let them realize what they are trying to do is wrong.. Please let them have other things to do, other things to occupy their “mind” so that they forget about this project… please…”

People are looking at me

Walking on the streets, lots of babes you can see. You can tell a bit of her mind from her expression.

“People are looking at me.” That sort of thing. Regardless she’s a true babe or not.

The more you look at her, then the more stuck-up the look becomes, the more “dramatic” her walk becomes. Sometimes you may be looking at her ridiculous makeup or her funny dress. But that doesn’t matter. As long as there are people looking at her.

Sometimes I will also have the stuck-up look and ridiculous walk (doesn’t matter whether I’m a babe or not, that’s not the point =p wahaha). When there are guys around (especially hunks), I will move graciously, walk confidently.

BUT…
Almost every time I tried to do so, I ended up almost fell or tripped…

#$#@^*$#$@*.........

Luckily I never really did fall… and I hope I won’t.

If one day I do fall, I hope there’ll be someone to help me up, and that someone better be a muscular guy. HAHAHAHAHA…… I love man with muscles, like Jackie Chan :D I like Sean Connery too :D He's the sexiest man in the world… Brad Pitt? Nah…