The power of love, is great, yet sometimes deadly.
Everybody knows that. Some people do great things for love, some people do destructive things for love… Recently we had a bad news of a friend. We are not sure of the details but we heard she ended her life because of love troubles. We are not sure how true that is.. Whatever it was, I hope she rests in peace. It was her life. She chose this way and who are we to comment about it?
When somebody chose death because of love, generally people will say he/she is stupid or silly, or not worth the compassion. But what do WE know? Those who chose this way, he/she must have been the loneliest, saddest, helpless at that point of time. Easy for us to say that was stupid.
The death of this friend, was a big impact to me. Regardless the reason of her death, she must have been extremely helpless... I know how that feels. For I almost had the same destiny 2 years ago. Nobody will understand how lonely one can feel even amongst crowds of people unless they experience it themselves.
She was such a lovely and cheerful girl. I was a cheerful girl in the past too. Well, outwardly I am still that cheerful girl. But sometimes, outwardly cheerful and crazy people, have a darker personality that doesn’t show…
Well, enough about sad things.
The power of love, is great. Everybody agrees on that. Sometimes I wonder why. People who believe in a particular religion, will sometimes change their religion for her/his husband/wife. But I always wonder, If you believe in one particular religion, how can you just change your believes overnight? I guess religion, to some people is just some "decoration" for life. That’s why it can be changed overnight. In this case, "love" overpowers "God".
Because of love, people changed their religion. One who used to love beef will stop eating them because his/her other half's believe is not allowed to eat beef. If I were to marry a Muslim, I'd probably continue to eat pork outside the home. Perhaps I am a bit different with people.. perhaps I am a weirdo. Most people will think what I've mentioned (stop eating beef/pork because of your other half's religion) is the right thing to do. But to me, I don't feel that's a MUST thing to do for love. I can love my other half so deep even to die for him. But eating beef/pork won't make me love him less.
I guess the problem is I simply don't believe in religion. What is religion when it can be changed so easily? Where is the conviction? Might as well don't believe in one. My life conviction is, do not do things that will harm people. I don't care if there is a God or Gods. For believing in this impossible-to-prove-God does not bring benefits to my life. But still I always wonder, why people changed their life-time believes overnight for their husband/wife. Then where does the believe stand? Just because of love? Then where is the love for their God? hmm... the power of love really is greater than the power of God, I guess.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Bugs & spiders
Photos of bugs and spiders AGAIN~
I love ladybird, don't you? They are so cute.
These are some weird looking caterpillars. Looks a bit like rambutan with a human face..
No idea what this bug is. Some kind of beetle..
This spider was kind of cute isn't it? The pattern on its body, quite nice.
This is another tiny one on the plant.
This one is something, caught a fly same size of its body. This spider looks similar to the one above, but this is hairy and the first one is not..
A friend told me he was frighten by a mimic ant spider when he was little. It's red colour, mimic those big, red ants, not the black tiny ants. So I guess this might just be the mimic ant spider he mentioned. It does look like those big red ants.
Too bad this photo was not sharp enough. It kept moving...
This grasshopper was quite big...It came rested on one of our plants one day, and remained there for a couple of days... Then it left. But it came back again, almost on the same spot! We're sure it's the same one cos its front left leg was broken.
Moths everywhere...
On the same night, there were 2 of these and another species of moth in my house.
Now the tiny bugs I once posted in the blog. This time they are really grown up.. until they've become green colour. Green colour and red eyes... kind of sinister looking. Not that cute anymore. The big green one in this pic, you can almost see its babies contained inside its big fat body!
There were sooooo many.. urrghh..... they really look disgusting when they've become green colour.
These yellow ones are much much cuter...
I love ladybird, don't you? They are so cute.
These are some weird looking caterpillars. Looks a bit like rambutan with a human face..
No idea what this bug is. Some kind of beetle..
This spider was kind of cute isn't it? The pattern on its body, quite nice.
This is another tiny one on the plant.
This one is something, caught a fly same size of its body. This spider looks similar to the one above, but this is hairy and the first one is not..
A friend told me he was frighten by a mimic ant spider when he was little. It's red colour, mimic those big, red ants, not the black tiny ants. So I guess this might just be the mimic ant spider he mentioned. It does look like those big red ants.
Too bad this photo was not sharp enough. It kept moving...
This grasshopper was quite big...It came rested on one of our plants one day, and remained there for a couple of days... Then it left. But it came back again, almost on the same spot! We're sure it's the same one cos its front left leg was broken.
Moths everywhere...
On the same night, there were 2 of these and another species of moth in my house.
Now the tiny bugs I once posted in the blog. This time they are really grown up.. until they've become green colour. Green colour and red eyes... kind of sinister looking. Not that cute anymore. The big green one in this pic, you can almost see its babies contained inside its big fat body!
There were sooooo many.. urrghh..... they really look disgusting when they've become green colour.
These yellow ones are much much cuter...
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Broke
I am really the broke loh.
Tuesday I went shopping alone, walked till my feet were about to break and I bought nothing. Suppose to go gym yesterday but changed plan and went shopping again.
Finally, bought something I've been looking for some time. Bought a pair of working pants from G2000, milky colour. I wanted a white/milky colour skirt but it's so hard to find. So I settled for a pair milky colour pants instead. It's new arrival, no discount, sian. But it's an "investment" for future better job. haha.. Last few weeks I bought a working dress at Chinatown. Kind of ex too but all these are more professional looking attire, which is worth it.
Then I bought a diving vest from RipCurl. It's $145......... really the damn broke liao. I've been looking for this kind of vest in dive shops but those super ugly ones already cost $135. Spend another $10 for very pretty design is worth it~ Furthermore it's got titanium inner lining (provides more warmth) which the $135 one doesn't have. See below pic, nice right? :D but mine is with grey stripe not blue.
I'm broke. And I haven't got my Nike top. Siao liao. Feb has to renew my diving insurance. Lagi siao. March going diving. Oh My God, where do all these money going to come from???
Tuesday I went shopping alone, walked till my feet were about to break and I bought nothing. Suppose to go gym yesterday but changed plan and went shopping again.
Finally, bought something I've been looking for some time. Bought a pair of working pants from G2000, milky colour. I wanted a white/milky colour skirt but it's so hard to find. So I settled for a pair milky colour pants instead. It's new arrival, no discount, sian. But it's an "investment" for future better job. haha.. Last few weeks I bought a working dress at Chinatown. Kind of ex too but all these are more professional looking attire, which is worth it.
Then I bought a diving vest from RipCurl. It's $145......... really the damn broke liao. I've been looking for this kind of vest in dive shops but those super ugly ones already cost $135. Spend another $10 for very pretty design is worth it~ Furthermore it's got titanium inner lining (provides more warmth) which the $135 one doesn't have. See below pic, nice right? :D but mine is with grey stripe not blue.
I'm broke. And I haven't got my Nike top. Siao liao. Feb has to renew my diving insurance. Lagi siao. March going diving. Oh My God, where do all these money going to come from???
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Changed
I think I've changed a lot. Nowadays, I kind of enjoy going shopping alone. Previous years, ask me to go shop alone? I rather die.
To me, that's a tremendous change. I never imagined myself enjoying going out alone. But I guess I was forced by the circumstances.
Was talking to EK and SL, they too enjoy doing certain activity alone.
Have we grown up? Or our mindsets have changed? Both I guess.
Sometimes doing something alone is better than having to accommodate other ppl's preferences, schedule, etc.
I guess this change is not that bad. The only cons about going out alone is that, at crowded food outlet, you can't find a seat first then go and buy food. So, sometimes have to share a table with strangers. Which I don't like.
To me, that's a tremendous change. I never imagined myself enjoying going out alone. But I guess I was forced by the circumstances.
Was talking to EK and SL, they too enjoy doing certain activity alone.
Have we grown up? Or our mindsets have changed? Both I guess.
Sometimes doing something alone is better than having to accommodate other ppl's preferences, schedule, etc.
I guess this change is not that bad. The only cons about going out alone is that, at crowded food outlet, you can't find a seat first then go and buy food. So, sometimes have to share a table with strangers. Which I don't like.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Monday, January 07, 2008
Happy or sad
I was happy on Thursday night.
I was sad on Thursday night.
I was very happy on Sunday night. :)
I was sad on Thursday night.
I was very happy on Sunday night. :)
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Similan Dec 2007
I had a great time in Similan~ I saw manta for the first time~!! It were 2 short glimpse of it but I am happy :D This photo is from Gabriel's camera. My photo of it was really blur. I was so caught in surprise as it appeared less than 2 minutes into our dive!
The guide had told us 99.9% we will see the mantas and we did!! well, not all of us saw it. I am really thankful that I did!! It was a small manta. Saw twice in that one dive only.. Before that day I dreamt of manta and I saw manta~ Next night, I dreamt of whale shark but too bad I didn't see one.
See here for the rest of the photos : Similan Photos
This was my strobe (underwater flash)'s maiden dive!! And I got some nice photos which I am really satisfied with. Here are 5 of my favourites :
1. Little crab in hard coral : This was shot in a night dive. I had only one shot on this. I like the pink portion of the coral so I didn't crop very tight on the little crabbie.
2. Moray eel with soft coral : My strobe actually pointed more on the coral than the eel, it'll be perfect if I pointed on it correctly. This eel was coorperate enough, I waited for its mouth to open big big to breathe and took the shot. The other moray that I took hardly open its mouth..
3. Little fish on sea grass : I don't know what fish is this. And this was the first time I saw this kind of sea grass. It looked like a shot directly from an aquarium, doesn't it? The grass looked very soft and it's very pretty.
4. Hawk fish with red coral background : hawkfish really makes good subject. I actually prefer the second pic because of its fins' position. But it looked like it had only one eye...
5. Little fish with sea grass again : The little fish looked like a baby in its cradle.
This was taken not long after we left the port, on the upper deck of the boat.
The blue sea was really nice~
My flat abs.. gone... after days of munching on tidbits non-stop. I looked like 3months pregnant....
The flower blocked my view... Else this would be a great pic..
Super friendly turtle!!!! It kept coming back for watermelon. We get to touch its head, its fins, its shell.. and it wasn't annoyed at all! 2 of our divers jumped into the sea and snorkel with it, "molest" it all over yet it still remain with us for a longgggggg time, long after we ran out of watermelon.
It felt so much like playing with a puppy.
There was another turtle came to our boat on the next day. So.... fun~!!
Everybody looking and playing with the turtle.
Another hawkfish shot.
Gab took this pic as I couldn't get my strobe to point on the correct place. This was during the first few dives where I struggled in finding the correct angle for the strobe.
Another turtle~
Similan sunset~
BIG BIG lobsters!
We saw the most octopus in this trip~ I love octopus!
This octopus remained with us for a long time too. It went under the rock, came out, went in, came out. So funny. We were pretty close. I was a bit scared that it will get frustrated of us and jump on my face, so I backed up. haha... There's no way we can fight with its many, strong suckers underneath its tentacles.
The not-so-aggresive-triggerfish. I thought I was the only who took this shot, the triggerfish with one tooth less. Turned out that everybody took this same shot, almost same posture too!
A crab in super red sponges.
Super big crab!!!
I call this "double-decker shrimp", cos it looks like the prawn printed on Double Decker prawn cracker.
The sea was full of blenny.
We saw this "cowboy diver" underwater! He wore a hat while diving! I totally blur... when I saw him.
I think this guy was in the same group with the cow-boy. The act-macho-dive-with-swimming-trunk-diver. The water was pretty cold and he did look cold. ha! Serves him right if he felt cold.
Pink diver!!
I was only taking the photo of the little flower like thing on the sea-whip. Not so sharp.
This stonefish laid on the sea grass, it looked soooooo comfortable. Makes you want to lay on the sea grass too.
I was waiting for the blenny to get behind the purple soft coral to take a shot like this.
On sun deck. That was a very nice sun deck~
One of our dive guides, Alain, from Belgium.
The guys, from left, Guy, Winnie, Freddie, Laura, Tiffany, George, me, Doreen, Philip, Gabriel, Andy, Alex and Alain.
This is our boat~
A 5 days trip, gone. Looking forward to dive Tioman again in March when season open~!!!!!
The guide had told us 99.9% we will see the mantas and we did!! well, not all of us saw it. I am really thankful that I did!! It was a small manta. Saw twice in that one dive only.. Before that day I dreamt of manta and I saw manta~ Next night, I dreamt of whale shark but too bad I didn't see one.See here for the rest of the photos : Similan Photos
This was my strobe (underwater flash)'s maiden dive!! And I got some nice photos which I am really satisfied with. Here are 5 of my favourites :
1. Little crab in hard coral : This was shot in a night dive. I had only one shot on this. I like the pink portion of the coral so I didn't crop very tight on the little crabbie.
2. Moray eel with soft coral : My strobe actually pointed more on the coral than the eel, it'll be perfect if I pointed on it correctly. This eel was coorperate enough, I waited for its mouth to open big big to breathe and took the shot. The other moray that I took hardly open its mouth..
3. Little fish on sea grass : I don't know what fish is this. And this was the first time I saw this kind of sea grass. It looked like a shot directly from an aquarium, doesn't it? The grass looked very soft and it's very pretty.
4. Hawk fish with red coral background : hawkfish really makes good subject. I actually prefer the second pic because of its fins' position. But it looked like it had only one eye...
5. Little fish with sea grass again : The little fish looked like a baby in its cradle.
This was taken not long after we left the port, on the upper deck of the boat.
The blue sea was really nice~
My flat abs.. gone... after days of munching on tidbits non-stop. I looked like 3months pregnant....
The flower blocked my view... Else this would be a great pic..
Super friendly turtle!!!! It kept coming back for watermelon. We get to touch its head, its fins, its shell.. and it wasn't annoyed at all! 2 of our divers jumped into the sea and snorkel with it, "molest" it all over yet it still remain with us for a longgggggg time, long after we ran out of watermelon.
It felt so much like playing with a puppy.
There was another turtle came to our boat on the next day. So.... fun~!!
Everybody looking and playing with the turtle.
Another hawkfish shot.
Gab took this pic as I couldn't get my strobe to point on the correct place. This was during the first few dives where I struggled in finding the correct angle for the strobe.
Another turtle~
Similan sunset~
BIG BIG lobsters!
We saw the most octopus in this trip~ I love octopus!
This octopus remained with us for a long time too. It went under the rock, came out, went in, came out. So funny. We were pretty close. I was a bit scared that it will get frustrated of us and jump on my face, so I backed up. haha... There's no way we can fight with its many, strong suckers underneath its tentacles.
The not-so-aggresive-triggerfish. I thought I was the only who took this shot, the triggerfish with one tooth less. Turned out that everybody took this same shot, almost same posture too!
A crab in super red sponges.
Super big crab!!!
I call this "double-decker shrimp", cos it looks like the prawn printed on Double Decker prawn cracker.
The sea was full of blenny.
We saw this "cowboy diver" underwater! He wore a hat while diving! I totally blur... when I saw him.
I think this guy was in the same group with the cow-boy. The act-macho-dive-with-swimming-trunk-diver. The water was pretty cold and he did look cold. ha! Serves him right if he felt cold.
Pink diver!!
I was only taking the photo of the little flower like thing on the sea-whip. Not so sharp.
This stonefish laid on the sea grass, it looked soooooo comfortable. Makes you want to lay on the sea grass too.
I was waiting for the blenny to get behind the purple soft coral to take a shot like this.
On sun deck. That was a very nice sun deck~
One of our dive guides, Alain, from Belgium.
The guys, from left, Guy, Winnie, Freddie, Laura, Tiffany, George, me, Doreen, Philip, Gabriel, Andy, Alex and Alain.
This is our boat~
A 5 days trip, gone. Looking forward to dive Tioman again in March when season open~!!!!!
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