Can you give me some money?

I was in the bus, this man approached me and asked for some money and said that because he couldn't find a job.

I politely refused by smiling and shook my head.

But I felt bad.

He went back to his seat behind (there're not a lot of ppl on the upper deck). A while later he approached another woman and she shook her head too.

I don't like this happening to me but it happens all the time. I mean, there's a big possibility that he's a drug addict or someone who is lazy to get a job. My bro said nowadays there're a lot of young people beg for living, not because they are disabled, not because they can't find a job. But they simply didn't try to find a job and chose this easier way to get money.

I said I don't like this because, I could just give him a couple of bucks, no matter he's telling the truth or not. I can just treat it as any donation. If he's lying, he's the one committing a sin. However, I don't like to be cheated. I don't like the idea that my hard earn money goes to someone who is not genuinely in need of help.

And this left me in a dilemma EVERY TIME. I feel guilty for not giving him only a couple of bucks, in case he's telling the truth. But I also feel disgruntled if I give him the money when I'm unable to know whether he was telling the truth.

And it made me feel like a bad person.

I was cheated by a fake monk before, bastard Chinese national fake monk. WHen I see such fake monk again on the street I feel like kicking their asses. And we've all encountered people who said they've lost their wallet and asked for a few bucks to take bus home or something. Those are definitely fraud. Next time I meet such people, I will tell him "I bring you to police station and you ask the policeman to help you." And see what his response is.

What would you do if it were you?

Another fear over

Finally got my other and last wisdom tooth extracted. It was decaying very badly. Whew.... This time it was much faster, A LOT faster. Previous one, this female doctor had to used quite a lot of force, this time it was like, only a quarter of the effort. And I didn't feel the tooth coming out, although it doesn't hurt because of the anaesthetic but it's horrible to feel your tooth being pulled out. This time it was all over in perhaps 20seconds! What a relieve! :D

I've been procrastinating to get this tooth extracted. Now it's all over~ Happy!!

Still, I hate the feeling of losing control of the muscles around one side of my throat (due to the anaesthetized area too close to the throat). It felt suffocating, it felt I'm about to be drown in my own saliva. It was a horrible thing. This time round I required only 2 shot of anaesthetic instead of 3. So I guess it was not that bad compare to last time. But it's still horrible.

I really love this Dr Tan. Friendly and gentle. Ahh... I'm so delighted it was over. hahaha...

Sleep under the moonlight

For the past 2 nights, I had been sleeping under the moonlight, literally.

The moon had been on the Southern side around midnight, where my window is facing. My bed is directly below the window.

The night before yesterday, I saw a light cast on my bed near my pillow, which was unusual. I looked out to search for the source of the light. Turned out it was the moon! It was full moon. And the sky for the past 2 nights had been extremely clear. Since it was full moon and hardly any cloud, the moon reflected the light from the sun quite brightly. And the light was cast on my bed.

The first night the light was cast on the left side of my pillow (around 1am). The second night, it was on the right side of my pillow (around 12:30am). Both nights, I slept facing where the light was. I purposely slept with a position which had the light either cast on my face or my hand. Why? No particular reason. Only because it's rare. How many times can you have the chance to sleep under the moonlight? Except when you go and sleep on the beach.

Maybe I can 吸收日月精华(absorb the "essence" of the sun and moon)? hahahahahaha.... Saturday afternoon I helped my bro planted grass for a few hours under extremelyl strong sun. I already absorbed the "sun's essence". Now I absorbed the moon's essence. wahaha...

Crazy old woman ya? hahaha...

Dream comes true, literally

Call me GOD. wahaha...

Yesterday I dreamt SL and I went holiday. And today Tiger Airways is having $1 promotion and we bought tickets to Kota Kinabalu! We ARE going holiday afterall!! My dream really do come true! wahahahahah...

But in my dream there was EK as well, but she's not available on that date.

And in my dream we share room, no, it's not a room it's just a "space", we share the space with bangla ........! This part definitely cannot come true, man!! hahaha....

The other day I dreamt my mum strike a $100,000 lottery and 2 days later she almost did!!! The number she bought almost came out, shucks!!

I must continue to work on my "dream power" and foresee 4D number. wahahahaha... Just kidding lah...........

Searching for THE bra

I need a sports bra.

I saw an Adidas sports bra weeks ago. But as I just exercised at the gym, I felt not so nice to try out the garment since I just sweat although I was already perfectly dried up after dinner and in the air cond space. But I was still in my gym wear. People can tell I just went exercise. So I intended to come again next time.

Less than a week later I went back the shop. And that particular design was gone!! FUCK!

My considerate behaviour backfired on me!! Fuck...

Today, I went to Orchard, in search of that particular piece I saw.

I first went to Pacific Plaza, then Wheelock Place, then Wisma Atria, then Taka, then Heeren, then back to Atria again, then back to Wheelock again..................... I'll spare you the details why I go back Wheelock again... I walked a rather fast pace for 2 hours... And I didn't get what I want. I wonder how much calories have I burnt...

And I made a mistake at work today, again. FUCK.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.

What a day. What a fucking day.

You and your attitude

I have promised myself I will not shed any tears for you again.

Yet your annoying attitude made me broke my own promise.

Why have you never give me any words of encouragement and yet still said my friends' encouragement are words of deceit?! Everybody needs some encouragement. Since long time ago I hardly get any encouragement from you. Every time I happily tell you something I've achieved, even if it's just a small thing, it means something to me, but you will say to me things like "很厉害meh?" When I complaint you said you were just joking. Joke for you, NOT for me. It wasn't funny. It hurts.

And it happened again. Sometimes I wish you can split into two and listen to the way you talk to people from an outsider's view. Ah but it won't help, because it's the same you even if you split into two. You said I only listened to my friends. (You were wrong. I always quote what you said to my friends.) You have complaint about the same thing about your ex to me too, many years ago. I am beginning to think it's the way you say things. It's not about us, it's about you.

You said "Now only run 2.4km, how to run 10km?" The way you said it, your tone of voice, was not encouraging at all and you said it wasn't negative.

I've only started training last week, only started to run outdoor one week, ONE WEEK! What more do you want from me? I've NEVER been able to run 2.4km straight even on treadmill and now I did it outdoor and all you can say was that. Like anybody is going to continue listening to you after that.

I know you and your army people very 了不起. but I am not army people. You and other once-army-NS friends, think nothing of Mt Kinabalu. Yeah you all very 了不起. And I'm useless for not reaching summit. Everyone said things like "At least you made it to Laban Rata", "At least you tried". WHat have you ever said to me? To you army people Mt K is NOTHING. Yeah well I'm not army people. I never even like to run 100m when I was schooling. I made it to Laban Rata and I'm already very proud of myself. I could have tried to make it to summit but I chose not to. Because I want to go back in one piece. Because I don't want to be so selfish to try it when I'm not confident and risk my life. Because my parents would be heart broken if anything happens to me. I can always try it again next time when I'm more confident.

You think your words are 忠言逆耳. Maybe they are but you should really step back and listen to the way you say things. I always respect what you said. It's the way you say things that made me rebut you.

Arh whatever. Who am I to you? I'm just a "friend" now, just a friend who doesn't even get a birthday gift from you. I don't want to shed tears because of you anymore ever again.

6 laps today!

I have ran 6 laps on the field today! So happy! It's my best record till date!

Just yesterday, it was my first time to run 6 laps on treadmill in 20minutes. Today I actually managed to run 6 full laps ON THE FIELD in 20min 30seconds! It was very very slow lah. Most of the aunties and uncles were faster than me :p hahahah...

Anyway, I was really surprised because the day before it was only the first time I ran for 6 laps on treadmill. Wonderful! So happy. And I didn't experience any abdomen pain today! Sooooo happy.

Catch your "ball"?!

This is what happened to a friend's colleague.

This lady was corresponding with a Japanese counterpart via email and she couldn't understand what he was saying in the mail. After several emails back and forth she finally understood and she probably was elated and she replied :

"Oh! I catched your ball now!"

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HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA...........

I do not know if that Japanese knows there is another thing which the word "ball" refers to.. (*!*! for those who don't know, it also means "testicles"!) If he does know, that will be the biggest joke in his career!!!!!

She should have said "Oh I catched the ball now.". but can someone tell me is it proper English? Cos I had thought it was translated from HOkkien... (liak bo kiu)

The Run

What have I got myself into? The 10k run? It's been a few months since I ran outdoor. Just now I went outside to run. Oh my gosh, after 2 laps I almost die. hahaha...

Running on treadmill is SO MUCH easier! I knew this. But the difference this time is too great. Perhaps because I didn't run outdoor too long.

Maybe in the end, it's still EK who finishes the race and I don't. Just like Mount K. hahahaha.. it's possible. But I must tell myself, I can do it!

Singapore's woman team reached Everest

The first all woman Singapore team has reached the summit of Mount Everest! So happy for them! Technically, half the team made it at this point, as they separated into 2 teams for a higher rate of success. The first team has reached summit. The second team will head for summit on 22nd.

It's really courageous of them and I'm really happy for them, even though I'm not a Singaporean. It's not an easy feat. There're not a lot of people who can do this. I read that one of the girls (I supposed all of them do) wakes up every morning at 4 or 5am and ran 15km everyday. You really got to have A LOT of discipline to wake up at such wee hours and run such long distance. I've tried to wake up about an hour earlier to go running. I've tried soooo many times. Each time I just ended up shutting off the alarm clock and said to myself "Oh..tomorrow.. tomorrow i'll wake up and run.." and went back to sleep. LOL.

Again, congratulations to the girls and hope the second team will make it to the summit too~

21/5 update : When I read the news again, I really felt like crying. Because they've done something incredible. Some people commented at the news of this : "So what if they've climbed the Everest, does that help the poor? Does the economy improved?" Granted everyone has their own opinion but it's just really not a nice thing to say. So EVERYONE must put down everything, every interest, every hobby and concentrate on helping the poor? We do what we can to help, but we all have our own lives to live.

Miko eats ice

It was really hot and I gave a piece of ice to Miko and see how is her reaction to it. And she loved it! Bite into the ice and eat it like a human "krap krap krap" in her mouth. So funny.

For him

I'm so disappointed with you. Can we still consider "good friends"? I don't know. I honestly don't know.

Why do you still put my photo as your wallpaper when you're being so cold to me at times?

Why am I still affected by this? Because of what you said before. Because you said you will love me forever. But I do not think you remember what you have said.

I never expected you to treat me this way. And it hurts.

Maybe I'm just silly, naive.

SOmetimes I feel like sleeping with anybody and tell you about it.