Goodbye, Michael

I stayed up late yesterday night to watch MJ's memorial service.

It was so moving, and... heartbreaking at the same time.

Some people said all these are just a circus. It was not a circus. Michael would have love this. It was simple and heartwarming, a fitting tribute to the greatest entertainer the world has ever seen. Fans all over the world sent messages to CNN/Facebook streaming site. Everyone loves Michael (well... not everyone..)

Everyone who had met him, everyone who had worked with him, had nothing but good things to say about him. He was polite, he was kind, he was caring, he was patient, he was funny.

If you saw him talked, you can feel that he was genuine, wherever he was and whomever he was talking to. I believe his love for children was genuine. Only because we have all grown up and only have interests in our own children doesn't mean a grown man cannot genuinely LOVE every child. He was a kid at heart. He enjoyed the company with children. Simple as that. He didn't have a normal childhood, in fact he never had a normal life. Can you imagine a life where you can't even go to the grocery store without a bodyguard since you were 10? Your whole life is like living in an invisible jail. He had been enduring such life for 40years. He brought us so much joy, yet he was so lonely. And like his brother Marlon said, "He was judged, ridiculed. How much pain can one take? Maybe now they will leave you alone."

I've never seen a person like Michael. If you watch the interviews of those who have worked with him, they really respect him, they really think Michael's talent was unbelievable. To me, his talent is probably unsurpassable. He was so devoted to music, so creative, so hardworking and so talented. He was a born performer. He was so rich yet he was as kind as ever, as true as ever. Yes, he liked shopping. Too much. But perhaps it was only a way to deal with the emptiness and loneliness in his life.

He cared for the world, he cared for the children. He's such a philanthropist. He's given so much for charity and he had also done many good deeds without the world ever knowing. He was SUCH a giver. He was ever so soft-spoken, since he was a little kid. In my eyes, he really was an angel.

I have been crying again and again for days.. and my tears still don't seem to dry up soon. I am not trying to be sanctimonious. The pain in my heart of his passing.. is unbearable. He was such a large part of my life, my childhood. Millions and millions of people feel the same. He had been entertaining the world for decades. We grew up with him. And I feel so, so bad for the children. Just like when Steve Irwin died, I felt so bad for the children. Michael and Steve were such great fathers their children loved and idolised so much. Yet these two great fathers had to leave their young lives so soon. Too soon. Too cruel.

Millions and millions of people have cried for him around the globe today. The world really has united, for Michael. People of all races, people from all over the world, watched, as the family and friends and fans paid tribute to THE man, and shared their pain. No one has ever united the world like this (except Princess Diana) and no one ever will. It is significantly incredible.

I am thankful that I live in a time where Michael existed. Michael was and is the greatest. Thank you for the joy you brought us through your music. Rest in peace. Goodbye... Michael.. our king, our hero. Goodbye...